For me the action was cooking and adding the “extra” to the meals. By doing this I am fighting the lies of worthlessness by showing myself I am worth the time. I am allowed to take up space. I am allowed quality.
“Wow! You are really know how to care for yourself.” The sarcastic thought roams in my head after I finished my 5th slice of pizza. I quickly put up defenses to counter my poor eating choices.
“I will eat less and add extra exercise tomorrow.”
I can hear the chains clinging.
“Is this for real?” “Wait! What? I don’t understand? Everything was fine, now it’s not?” I have heard these questions asked many times before, however I am usually the one providing reassurance and education. As a nurse, I was asked similar questions by patients and family members several times a day. Being the caregiver, you…… Continue reading Certainty in Uncertainty
As the cool down portion of the workout begins, I am filled with gratitude for another reason to think positively of myself. And these thoughts are not related to my size or the way I look. My thoughts are of who I am as a human. My heart rate is up increasing the blood flow to my brain and the steady movement of my body allows by mind to slow. I am able decipher the difference between truth and lies. My thinking is clearer. I notice every muscle’s action and counteraction as I stretch. Movement is intentional. Every breath is deliberate. Filling my lungs with air, followed by exhaling as I stretch the muscle further. The discomfort and tightness I felt before the workout are absent. My muscles are fatigued from the exercises but are ready for the day.
The effort it takes to pull air into my lungs and my racing heart pushes me to my limits. I am in a push up position. I transition of my body weight to my arms as I crunch one leg to my chest while the other leg extends straight into the air behind me. My…… Continue reading Not about the “W”
Fear of being hurt and alone should not keep you from being committed to a community. Relationships may only last a season. And may cause pain at the end. But no matter how long the season, we can do great things together out of love for one another. It is in community that we flourish.
To all the people who spend time exercising and eating well only to not see a shift on the scale or maybe the number bumped up. All the effort given but the goal is still out of reach. All the work put in but it still didn’t make a difference. The disappointment that hits when…… Continue reading It didn’t work… but it’s not the end
A regular conversation occurring recently has been discussing the fact that we get to choose our reactions. We don’t get to choose the circumstance or what the another person did to us, but we do get to choose how we react to the circumstance or the person. I would love to say this is my…… Continue reading We Get to Choose
This change that I made that was to benefit my hope and dreams for my children had completely changed me as a woman.